do you ever lose it?

May 5, 2026

I just had to jump through what felt like 10 fiery hoops to make it to my blog to make a post. I forgot I have a weird route to my wordpress admin and can’t access directly via the wordpress site. I was originally inspired to write about something else but now I can barely remember the theme of that inspiration let alone any cognitive thoughts about it.

I really hate that about inspiration. It can truly just strike, and if you cannot notate it in some way, it seems to be lost forever. I like to think it will boomerang back around, but how true is that, really.

And the worst is that I felt so inspired and convicted in what I wanted to say that my body and blood got pumping for it only to take a big breath with nowhere satisfying to release. Is this a cosmic joke?

Now I suppose all that is left to do is to walk the dog and then come back to finish the “chocolate suicide” dessert I got from the corner pizza place Friday night.